Sunday, April 15, 2007
8:10 PM
somethin juz came across my mind which make me ponder n kinda misses the days i had before i continued my studies in junior college...
the busy and packed schedules of jc life had seriously suffocating me...
i need to breathe!!
not onli dat..i juz realise dat i had neglected many pple around me..especially my mom
i felt kinda guilty abt it...bcoz i rmb dat i did promise my dad to accompany my mom more when he is away.. she is always at home doin all those never ending chores and waitin for us to be home..but we are usually back home late..
i did ask her whether she is lonely at home or not...but she will always reply..of course i m...but it's ok i don't really have time to tink of dat..i had endless chores need to be done..
the reply makes me feel a pinch dat i didnt really put in effort to go home early more often...
sometimes even i did make an effort to go home early...i didnt really have a chance to talk to her..listen to her sorrows..listen to all her grumbles.. which make me seems helpless and useless as a daughter..
homework homeWORK HOMEWORK!
tons of homework..stackin there waitin for me to serve them well...
can't they juz spare me for once?
i m always stuck in my room serving all those work..leaving my mom doin her chores quietly..
lookin at her without any grumble of me leaving her alone at hm all day long..
sorrows and gulity filled me in..
haix~
i promise to come hm early if i can..i promise to have my dinner wif u everytime u wan..
promises and promises and promises...is always meant to be broken! but not now! i will try my best to fulfill it! i will i really will...
i had nothin to say but to really say sorry to all the people dat i m neglecting..my secondary sch mates, my friends, especially my mom..if u see tis which i tink she wouldnt..i m veri sorry dat i couldnt be there whenever u guys need me.. thanks for askin me out n lettin me know dat i m nt forgotten..but i m really sorry dat i juz cant make it..homeworks are there...tests are nearing.. A levels approachin.. teacher pressurizin.. parents hopes..
is all there for me to feel it..i juz cant let it off and gif myself a break.. all i had to do is juz do do do and keep studyin non-stop until A levels end and my misery will end too..
